The 10th 12th

12 Jul

It’s ten months today since Rosie died.

Sylv and I had a long chat about her last night which was good. About how cross she’d have been about Sylvie moving into her room so quickly – but about how, secretly, she would have been pleased; and how irritated she’d have been, not with Sylvie wearing some of her clothes, but about the way Sylv wears them.  And about how annoyed she’d have been not to have written Sylvie the letter for her wedding day, which she was going to do. And how annoyed Sylvie was that she hadn’t written it, or left her a letter to find. It wasn’t a sad conversation at all. It was good to remember how fiery Rosie was about things.

So strange – some days she feels very close by. Other days, not at all. But if she was still alive she’d be here some days and not others, so that’s sort of okay.  And some days there’s the jolt of remembering that our daughter has died, almost as though it has just happened again. Still feel homesick, so have to put on the cloak of normality each day, but it is fitting a little bit better.

So it was equally fitting to get this today, a slightly blurry photo of three very fine people, one wearing a TKOE customised t shirt, right at the top of Snowdon, in the wind and rain, raising the best part of £1,000. A big Team Kilburn yay, for all of you.

And the bloodometer is now at …….28. Only two to go.

 

Jo xxx

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4 Responses to “The 10th 12th”

  1. Coz Al July 12, 2012 at 9:00 pm #

    What a great photo!

    Been thinking about Ro so much today, Lou and I were talking this morning, remembering the holiday and lots of other memories.

    Why do jolts have to come at the oddest times like when you are driving for instance, or listening to cheesy songs that have no attached significance. I walked around holding my domino keyring for comfort.

    xxxxx

  2. celia butler July 12, 2012 at 9:58 pm #

    Fantastic photo for a brilliant achievement. Rosie would be so chuffed, well done girls.
    Such a touching post.today, you’re such a strong family. Love to you all. x

  3. Andrea Clarke July 13, 2012 at 12:07 pm #

    Lovely picture and a great achievement. I climbed Croagh Patrick (Co. Mayo) in memory of my Dad so know how hard it is to get yourself up there. Well done girls.

    It’s hard to believe that 10 months have gone by. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. It is odd the way memory catches you out isn’t it. even after 11 years i can still get caught out especially when it comes to my Mum – but i think that’s good. i don’t think i would want it any other way.

    celia’s right – you are all so strong – although i bet you don’t believe that sometimes.

    xx

  4. Liz Kidd July 13, 2012 at 6:03 pm #

    Kindest thoughts and wishes to you all on this special day. You are doing marvellously – Hang on in there!

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