So it was a silly idea to write down the things to tell you about because I found myself deciding on null ideas that are no use to anybody. For example, I wrote ‘Irn Bru’ because I wanted to tell you that I had chosen to drink Irn Bru and not Coca Cola, firstly because Irn Bru is from Scotland and I am one whole quarter Scottish and secondly because I watched a program last night about Superbrands and it said that 17000 servings of coke are sold every second, so I thought oh my that’s way too much, don’t let them win. But, really, who the hell cares about that!? You don’t want to know that! That’s a null point.
I also wrote down to have a musing about how some foods smell way too nice. They smell better than they taste – like the fresh donuts from that stand in Gloucester town centre..and the hot chicken from Tesco. But, see! Why bother writing that?! It’s a sentence! Null null null.
What I really need to write about is how scared I am of Calum going and living in sheltered accommodation. And why the hell does Paracetamol only come in 500mg capsules? They are HUGE. Oh, that reminds me, I need to take my night-time pill. OH, and THAT reminds me that I didn’t even remind myself to tell you that the doctors, at my appointment today, told me to have a great holiday and when I come back I’m going back on the Sunitinib and they don’t want to see me for 6 weeks. 6 weeks?! They’ve wanted to see me every week for the past month! Suddenly my blood is going to be okay not to be seen for 6 weeks?! I predict, right now, that I will have to have a blood test, and will come off the Sunitinib because of my low blood count, in just 3 weeks. We’ll see what happens, yeah? 6 weeks, as if.
I don’t want Calum to go into sheltered accommodation because I don’t trust anyone. Calum is autistic and I don’t trust ANYONE with him. There are some people I’ve said I trust because I trust them with other things but people can do things that you would never expect them to do. I want him to be independent, but I want to watch everyone who is in contact with him. I’m allowed to be untrusting at first so don’t tell me to lighten up, okay? I need to be uneasy about this and I need you to agree with me for now and then once I have had my little uneasy tantrum then you can come from the other side. Thank you.
Ted is in a bad way so I’m taking her to the vets tomorrow. Do hamsters go to the vet? Aren’t they too small? I don’t know.